Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Trusting the Universe

We are a little less than a month away from our trip to Mumbai and I am just as excited and anxious and giddy as I have been since April, but I admit there is a tinge of uneasiness flitting through my body. It's kind of like when the reality of what you are doing and working so hard for every day is finally upon you, the thought of failing can send you into a brief moment of terror.

I guess because up until now it's been all about FERTILE, FERTILE, FERTILE -- fertile surrogates, fertile 25-year-old niece's eggs, fertile Bill sperm, fertility doctors, we've got this fertility thing up the wazoo! you'd think the combination of all these extremely fertile individuals HAS to equal a zygote to an embryo to a fetus, to voila!, a BABY, right?! I've even realized that most clinic's pregnancy success rates are based on couples who are having problems staying pregnant, so those percentages should be much, much higher for the big, fat fertility possie who will be converging upon Mumbai on September 18th, RIGHT?!

Well, while the numbers lean that way, I only wish things could be that sure and fail proof when it comes to what we are doing. In the end, we wish, we hope, we prepare, we do the best fertility dance we can muster up...and then we impregnate. After that we leave it up to "something else" orbiting outside the universe of meds, embryologists, motility counts, the perfect womb and 25-year old eggs. And we wait. And while I'm not going to ponder what that "something else" is on this blog, I do know this: if given the chance, Bill and I will pour our heart and souls in to raising this child, surround it with love and family and friends, give it the gift of a good education and as much of the abundancies of life we can afford, and send it out in to the world confident we did the best we could.

On this I speak the truth.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

San Francisco - Cincinnati - London - Mumbai

Yes, my friends, that is the route Bill's genetic material traveled, frozen at -150 degrees, hand carried, en route to Mumbai.
Tracking history... Help
Date and timeStatusLocation Service Area
8/8/2009 11:54 amShipment delivered. Mumbai (bombay), India Why is this?
8:42 amWith delivery courier. Mumbai (bombay), India
7:22 amArrived at DHL facility. Mumbai (bombay), India
6:30 amDepart Facility Mumbai (bombay), India
6:30 amProcessed at DHL Location. Mumbai (bombay), India
5:37 amTransit through DHL facility Mumbai (bombay), India
2:36 amClearance processing complete Mumbai (bombay), India
8/7/2009 9:05 amDepart Facility London-heathrow, United Kingdom
5:17 amProcessed at DHL Location. London-heathrow, United Kingdom
12:12 amTransit through DHL facility London-heathrow, United Kingdom
8/6/2009 7:50 amDepart Facility Cincinnati Hub, OH
4:47 amProcessed at DHL Location. Cincinnati Hub, OH
2:48 amTransit through DHL facility Cincinnati Hub, OH
8/5/2009 7:59 pmDepart Facility San Francisco Gateway, CA
7:18 pmTransit through DHL facility San Francisco Gateway, CA
6:43 pmDepart Facility San Francisco, CA
5:49 pmProcessed at DHL Location. San Francisco, CA
5:35 pmDeparting origin. San Francisco, CA
4:41 pmShipment picked up San Francisco, CA
Shipment details... Help
Shipment information
S F, CA 94133
United States
Mumbai (bombay), India
Ship date: 8/5/2009
Pieces: 1
Total weight: 30.0 lbs Note on weight
Service: International ExpressMore info
Shipment delivered.
Delivered on: 8/8/2009 11:54 am
Delivered to:
Signed for by: RAMONAWhat is this?
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I got a little nervous when I was tracking it (yes I was tracking it, I'm a freak), wondering if it would stop in every city between California and India, only to be left for pick up by some rickshaw driver on the curb at the airport in Mumbai. But hey, I've got no complaints. It made it safely, that's all that counts. And I am going to smother Ramona, the woman that signed for this precious shipment, with hugs and kisses when I see her at Rotunda in September. We're halfway there!!!! (well, kind of).